Ex-husband of media personality Toke Makinwa, Maje Ayida, has revealed how their dramatic divorce pushed him into depression and almost ruined his career. He recently shared that their public split left him ashamed, paranoid, and completely withdrawn from society.
Sharing a testimony at a UK church, Ayida disclosed that the entire situation actually made him want to remain in bed all day because he concluded that the entire nation hated him at that point.
According to him, the depression lasted for a full year, and he lost several business deals in the process after refusing to go to work for a while.
“I went through a divorce that was very publicised… and that left me feeling very alone. I was really ashamed of my situation… I went into hiding.
I lost the essence to even get up in the morning… what am I getting up for? Everyone already feels a certain way about me,” he said.
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Maje said that things got so bad that he became paranoid, believing everyone was talking about him whenever he walked on the street.
Revealing that his paranoia made him retreat further into isolation, the fitness coach admitted that he could not even sleep during that period.
“What’s sleep? I didn’t even know what that was. I had insomnia. The noise around me even though I was in silence was insane,” Ayida said.
He confirmed that his turning point happened after he made the bold decision to face his reality and turn his life around.
Maje concluded by saying that he found out later that the biggest answer to all of his problems was accountability.
“I took the blame on myself… it made me feel worse at first but eventually helped me take practical steps,” he added.
